If one love, one fear

Last week was a busy week. It was either work or rehearsals. So at least the musical production was a success :) (I'm the second from the left, the nerd)

















The part they have to 'suan' me.





















I'll be flying off tonight to the land of the rising sun.























Anyway I've been quite depressed lately. I'm going to try my best to forget your existence. I love watching romantic movie and read romantic books so it eventually make me believe in love. This December, I've fallen so deep into it, its like falling into a deep pit and its so difficult to get up. So I just continue standing at the bottom of the pit waiting for the soil to bury me. Then I can just disappear like that with pain still etched on my heart. I feel that I'm always on the losing side, I'm a loser. I get so upset easily when something I don't expect cruise into my way and I'll be clueless as to what I should do, so the only thing I can do is to cry cry cry. I've been known as a cry baby back in my ex primary school. I realised something, I'm always getting bullied when I was younger. A group of girls came to me during recess and said some mean things when I was there eating alone and once I desperately need the toilet, the teacher refused to let me go so I ended up peeing in class and getting laughed and smirked by other classmates. That's probably why I was transferred to another school. Okay why am I saying all my ugly past? Friends out there who have always said that I'm so cheerful and funny do not know that I'm actually a weakling. Being cheerful is just a character on my outer shell. After crapping so much, I'm going to try to not fall in love. Because falling in love brings heartache. I get so tongue-tied and I can't say what I want to you. What's the point of saying all these anyway, hai... this is life and I'll have to bear with it. I'll forget everything and have fun during my holiday trip. In the meantime, Merry X'mas to all who reads my boring blog.


PS: Last Christmas, I gave you my heart but the very next day, You gave it away this year, to save me from tears, I'll give it to someone special.

Tongue-tied.

Caiyan should love me for doing this hahaha. I took almost an hour to do this you know. One hour because I totally suck at doing all this art things esp on the computer. Anyway, happy 17 and 1 month old hehe. Btw, for those who doesn't know who that guy is, its none other that Ryeowook (Caiyan's husband as she claims so) from Superjunior! :)

And today is my handsome dad's birthday haha!


















This was a picture from his birthday last year. I think I look so different, wonder how my face changed so much in one year. My face is now rounder with lots of pimples embellished/studded on my face, how wonderful... Anyway, my dad's now 45. Does he look like he's 45? Well I don't think he looks like one.

Can't wait for the 28th dec because I'll be getting my first pay whoo hoo~ but I'll not be in Singapore that day. All rights, I'm going out for dinner with my family soon.

PS: My Mom is watching TV now and she started singing "Whoo whoo!" And I'm shocked.

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?

I've worked for a week already. It is tiring, very tiring. My feets get so sore till I really want to cry out when I'm working but obviously I can't. Imagine standing or walking around for 8 hours without getting a chance to sit or lean against a wall, with both hands behind you. It gets so boring and so busy at different time but its still all right. I can't quit. Its not totally about the money and not about being jobless. I just can't quit.



I am trying not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I've been waiting all my life
and I found ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

Purple twilight

Edited.

Its less than a month to x'mas! And then I'll be enjoying a super cold & white x'mas. Winter... I don't really like winter cause I'll have to wear about 5 to 6 layers of clothings and its really uncomfortable. Well at least its only for about 7 days.

New Moon will be out on the 3 Dec, I want to watch it! My sister wants to be a vampire too haha (Just a random photo I found somewhere).

Adevetorial

For Ray Ban lovers who are cash strapped because of the retail price of Ray Ban sunglasses from about $250 above, my dad has brought in stocks for Ray Ban sunglasses! Limited colours of wayfarers & aviators. Prices are ranging about $130 to $150? I owned a pair of wayfarers & aviators each, they're really good. Lens are UV-protected as well :) Celebs & Fashionistas like the Olsen twins, Rachel Bilson, Ashley Tisdale, Megan Fox, Kristin Cavallari & Rumi are spotted with Ray Ban sunglasses!

If interested, you may want to visit my dad's shop at:

Natures Vision Optique, #02-46
The Adelphi (Beside St. Andrew's Cathedral, opp Funan IT Mall, behind the Sumpreme Court 5 mins walk from City Hall Mrt)

Ray Ban wayfarers- Dawn Yang

And btw, I found a job! Will be starting work soon~


*PS: Flea Titan 4 today is postponed to 2 Jan 2010. Those who intend to go please don't go!

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If I were a rich girl

The birthday surprise I planned with many friends for Cy's 17th was ruined by Ruri! Hahaha. Although the planned was ruined, I still had fun eating, talking and walkng around.






























































Anyway, I'm back from a chalet. It was a crazy chalet. Some fighting in the middle of the night, lots of bbq, a horror which caused everyone to be so scared in the night & very little sleep. Other than bringing back memories from the chalet, I brought back an ache in my right arm. Anyway, I'm going for an interview later on, its like going for an oral exam... I hope everything goes fine! :)


Oh before I forget, I really want to buy this pair of wedges from Adalia. It fits my feet perfectly but again no money no money no money. Actually I do have the money to buy, however if I really do, I'll have very little money left for my holiday trip and other shopping... So, if anyone who doesn't mind spending money on me, perhaps you'd like to buy this wedges for my belated birthday or for early xmas present hehe.